Anxiety has always plagued me, for as long as I can remember. I would be perfectly safe and fine, lying down to go to bed. I would get a little idea in my head. the idea of what death is, and what it feels like. I imagine the idea of forever nothing, and that there is black. the weight of dark continued to press on my living soul, and I would freak out. I had to run from my dark room. I normally got up, screamed and ran outside into the cornfield that was behind our house. My parents would wake up and chase. they asked why I kept doing this, and I told them it's because I didn't want to die, which they never understood.
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